Resolution?

I made a New Years' resolution of sorts this year. I decided that I was going to try to speak up and always speak honestly. I don't think I have been doing so well. Trying but not always succeeding.

A situation that bugs me is when people use "How are you doing?", as a greeting. They don't really want to know. You can tell they aren't going to listen to more than "Fine." My thought was, if people ask, I should answer honestly. The best I've been doing with my answers is when I am asked, I give a very pointed, "I am doing okay." It's almost honest.

I had a situation today where I realized that I am staying in my familiar patterns of keeping to myself. I had my feelings hurt. I was talking with some people and I started to share something that I had learned. I was misunderstood and interrupted. Rather than speak up for myself, I just shut up. It is easier that way.

Shall I continue to try? With baited breath, the entire world waits to hear what I am thinking about! Hoards of loving friends are on edge, desperate to hear the answer to "How are you really doing?"


I am okay.